Jeeeez.... I've been so stressed... I'm worried about school... college... my grades... whether I'll get INTO college... Just.... EVERYTHING IS SO STRESSFULL! GAWD! I really don't know what to do to get away from it all... @-@; It doesn't help that about a week ago, my mom practically said I was going to follow in my drunk ass father's footsteps... That really hurt... and made me so depressed... I can hide it really well, but that ripped a pretty good chunk of meat from my already beaten heart. I already dislike my mother... but that only made things worse. She's a selfish, nagging, ungrateful whore... And if she would have stayed in school instead of run off fucking black men, maybe, just MAYBE she would actually care that dad does most of the work. Dad is back into college, and the other day, she was fussing at him for doing nothing but sleep and do his homework. But did she do ANY work? FUCK NO! The only time she ACTUALLY does something around the house is if she gets a cob up her ass and gets into clean every nook and cranny mode... Which she does RARELY!....... I...don't want to be like that....I don't want to make my husband do everything... but... right now... I hate doing house work... and... now that I think about it... the way I'm going... That might actually happen... hmn... what a way to have an epiphany...

Okay.... Sorry for the rant... I needed to get that out...

I know how many times I've said I'm alive again... and I think I'll actually be getting on more now... because I felt so much better once I got on DA today. I'll be on earlier tomorrow... and again, sorry for the rant, but I gotta run.

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